An Open Letter to SatanPosted: July 17, 2013
Wait, but first an open letter to you… The last time I blogged I told you I wasn’t blogging anymore! By now you might have figured out that I’m a little flaky. I truly meant that blogging was not so good for me at the time and that I shouldn’t do it. But now I truly mean that I enjoy blogging and maybe I shouldn’t take it so seriously. So how about this?… I’ll just blog sometimes when I feel like it. It might just be for me or maybe you’ll find a gem somewhere in there. If I promise you that I’m going to do a series or blog everyday for 30 days or something like that, just straight up don’t believe me. I’m not fantastic at constraints like that. 🙂
Anyway, back to life. I am, oh yes, once again, struggling with the weigh roller coaster. It’s not that I am huge or anything, it’s actually more of how I feel and how I feel about myself. I just hate the struggle and the thought that I may have this battle raging forever. I feel so helpless sometimes like I’ll never defeat it. I spent some time praying about it this morning and God put this in my heart. No diet plan or anything, just truth, that I might not be defeated. That I can do battle and win if I just keep the faith and trust God to calm me.
Dear Satan (and your sorry minions),
As you well know, I’ve been struggling with poor eating choices for a long time. I really got my feelings hurt yesterday and I almost believed you when you said that I would never beat this. For this, I hope you feel a little guilty. Sorry… I do. Anyway, you should know that I took this up with Abba this morning and now I’m kind of pissed. He said he’s got thousands and thousands of chariots ready to do battle on my behalf (Psalm 68:17) if you try and mess with me like that again. And over some ice cream? Really?! That’s lowdown.
Now, I am, in fact, going to be eating a bit healthier. You can do whatever you need to with that. But my sovereign Lord will help me (Isaiah 50:9), so I’m not too terribly concerned. You just might need to consider a different angle. If God is for me, who can be against me?